Deprivation.

Now, I felt as if I got deprived of everything.
My lover left me for another girl. He took everything away from me, leaving down nothing, not even a single thing.
My mother took away my carefree moment to party this mundane Friday away.
Thank God it's Friday. Yes, thank God but damn my mum. She took it away.
Leaving me alone at my solitary room when she is enjoy gambling away in the living room.
She thinks that I am a kid who will follow her under her nose?
She thinks that I am a kid who will be at her beck and call?
Come'on, drop the idea. Biatchhh!
Right now, I am thinking of ways to escape away from this place. But it just seemed like, the only way is to jump down from the window.
But damn, I don't live at the first storey.
Idea, idea, I need an idea which will goes on well.
What's wrong with just enjoy my life? Is it an offence to party?
What's wrong to love? Is it an offence too?
People say a leopard will never change its' spot. Then what is the purpose of yellow ribbon?
Ya, whatever an adult says or thinks, is always right.
Being their children will not have a say.
There, I got deprived of the rights to speak up.

Damn today, damn this life.
Fcuk ! Everything is going or had went haywire.

The time now being 12:55am.

First of all, I would like to wish Jasmine Happy 19th birthday!

Secondly, I would like to wish Xinlong all the best for his court tomorrow!

Thirdly, I would like to wish myself to live better.

I've came to a conclusion. I decided to quit school.

My plan for now is to get a job.

Yes, why this course? It is because I seemed to have the interest in accounting.

But my problem now is that am I able to save up? For the maximum that I saved up on my own is only a hundred and five dollars. I know that it is so pathetic. Candidly speaking, I do not have the habit to save up since young. I always have the habit to spend whatever I have. But now, the resolution is to save for the rainy days.

Today I went boonlay with my mum. My aunt came down too. Mum went to extract her tooth and oh dear, it hurts a lot. It was raining cats and dogs today. So we took a cab to and fro.

Took an afternoon nap at around 4pm plus and woke up at 7:30pm. Got a tremendous headache but I need to have my dinner as I’m famished. Around 8pm, Ben called and met him up and we went over to taman Jurong as he wanted to buy something to clean his car. Helped him clean his car okay!

Who says shuyu doesn’t know how to do housechores? In fact, I am a great helper hor! Hiakhiak!

10pm plus, went back home and my connection is so problematic. My Korean drama is loading soooooo slow. Seriously buay tahan !

I am going out to lepak with xinlong and fish soon. A sudden craving for spaghetti. Yesterday I craved for McWings but at last, not able to get it. Today I make sure I eat my spaghetti. Yes I put on weight. I need to get a job as soon as possible to kick this eating habit. My sister suspects that I am pregnant few days back. Laughs. But getting pregnant seemed to be interesting ya. I love babies! Haha. Ya ya, I know now is not the time yet.

Anyway, does human tends to get emotional more often at night than in the day? All right, I have to go soon. Will post again then! Bye readers. ( And I hope you stop stalking me. )

I don’t regret knowing you, I don’t regret I once, twice, tripled, loved you. But I regretted loving you when I know that you don’t care two hooks. I abhor harbouring fantasy thoughts. I dreamt of you daily, but to me, it is not sweet dreams at all. It’s a total nightmare. I tried to put you at the back of my mind but it is never easy. I appeared to be strong in front of my friends, but that doesn’t mean that I am strong. I am not at least strong. I don’t use words like fragile to describe me, that sounds too old school. I am just too vulnerable. They say letting go is also a form of Love, I say letting go is never easy. Hence, come to a conclusion,Loveis never easy. It had never been easy. If only miracle descend to us. Otherwise, I guessed, I will still be struggling. . .

It's 2:05am now.
I just want to say, Don't take me as a fool. What you had been doing, I already knew about it.
You really let me down, again.
I am so disappointed and with this, my decision gets stronger.
Fcuker! For You, (__)

Okay, I know there are people out there stalking my blog so since you read my blog posts and are so into what mischief I'm up to, get your eyes here then.

All right, I've been wanting to do up a proper post and probably post on my 18th birthday celebration but well, I have no time for it.
You must be thinking " if i've no time then what am i doing here, etc. "
I am here to recount to you (nt exactly thou) that I am ain't closing this blog down (:
Happy not? (tsk*)
Dear readers, I will try to blog a proper post again.
The time is 7:42am and I really need to hit the sack.
St James was not fun just now, still prefer Rebel (:

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Will update soon (:
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I live for no one but myself.
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