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Tuesday, March 24, 2009
I need someone who love me, not someone who i love, unilaterally. All right, i was at home the whole day. I was not bored. I sat down,on my own and reflect on many things. Im glad that I started to sort things out and have it well planned. My parents gave me who i am, today. They tried their best to make me happy, trying their best to shelter me from harm but yet, you always intruded your way to hurt me. Last few years, i never failed to side you and in the end, on bad terms with them. I never thought that i was in the wrong. I thought you will appreciate, at least. But apparently, you seemed not. I know that Love isnt something like i get back what i've contributed, it's never easy like 1+1 = 2. We have to contribute together if we want this to last but i just cant see the effort. Baby, nothing comes for free. You cant be too dependent on me. Im seeing myself playing the role of a girlfriend and at the same time, a boyfriend. Do you know all this while, i had been struggling? I bet you know nothing because you are taking all this for granted. I want you to change, i hope that you will change, to a better person, to my better boyfriend. Is it too much to ask for? I felt that you are just so contemptuous. I really hope that your mum had just construe wrongly. This relationship is however getting strenuous. But i realised, when im at the brink of losing you, my Love, it dawns on me that Love is selfish. I was petrified with fear of losing you but im even afraid that one day you will walk out on me and i will get even devastated. I've come out with a conclusion, if this aint getting any better, i willl let go. I'm getting tired of this. Again and again, i forgave you. Again and again, you brought me nothing but sadness and you are always the cause that got my tears flowing down,uncontrollably. I always thought that the sun will come after the rain but i realised im being too optimistic. I have to get down to earth and really give our relationship a thought. I also want a happy life, im aint any superwoman, There are things beyond my control too. Even no matter how much i couldnt bear to lose you, i still have to. Because a temporary pain is better than a prolong one. But, i still love you. Y |
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