Friday, April 3, 2009

I'm find myself holding onto those memories of us, which lasted for more than 4years. It's time to let go. I blamed myself for my fickle mindedness. Where are all the promises you gave me? Did i really lost it or did i let it slip away unknowingly when taking over from your hands?
Yes, there isn't right or wrong in a relationship. I have always wanted to be a good girlfriend. But I see no point of me contributing every little things when you only know how to accept but never once contributed anything. I believe there will be a limit to everything, for a human being. Right?
I told you umpteenth time that time is short, it wont neither slow down nor wait for you. I wondered if you had really got them into your head or have never paid much attention to the words I told you. Well, to be explicit, Time is really very important to me.
I'm not the old but well, I'm ain't young either. I bid goodbye to secondary school life. I cannot be like those young chicks who have the luxury of time to have countless of tries in relationship anymore. I had my fun, I had the taste of what people called it a retribution. I just want us to be down to earth and treasure whatever time we have together. But you simply make it toooooo far for me to reach. You are just like giving me a brolly but when it rains, you just take it back immediately, without having a thought that i would get drenched. This is the situation which I am at, thanks to you my dear.
I thought that I'm strong but, I'm not at least. I'm still living in our past. I find myself having difficulties to summon up the courage and leave. I cant bear to let go of the memories of more than 4years. Why do i still feel that it will be a pity to just go, like this. But when I simply cant get any happiness. Laine told me that one can create chances but do you believe? Can you even comprehend her saying? It's not easy for two to meet, it's even harder for us to get into a relationship and have Love. This is what i always told you -Fate. But I've a presage, it's fading, it's depleting, our relationship is gradually dying.
You told me you are apologetic and felt remorseful for the misdoings you did to me. I forgave you and told you it's all right. Let's not bring up the unhappy histories. I thought that you will change, i even beg to differ to others and defended for you that my boyfriend will change, he will.
Now, not at least.
I comprehend that no matter how much i do, how much time i place in you, it will ain't gonna please you. Because I find it really so tedious to satisfy you.
I'm at the verge of losing hope in you, in this relationship which is so important to me.
Perhaps he deserve me more than you. I told you before that leaving is the last thing i will resort to but if only you will be happy, i will leave no matter how devastated I'm gonna be. But i've really lost for plans and hopes in us. How?
Baby, will you try to make my change my mind and fall for you again?