Tell me, at the end of the day will you be the one here for me or am i going to face every lil shit, on my own?

I seemed to lost track of my happiness with you. You should know how much i love you or rather how much i used to love you. But why cant i answer to this question whenever i asked myself. How much does my boyfriend really love me? Or have my boyfriend love me before, even for once?

Should i leave? Do you hope for me to leave?

Darling Elaine was right. Stop thinking back to our past, they're just memories that hold me, pull me back. And that im 18this year. Time is very important to a woman. I love to plan for my future, i have to. But you are one who are not willing to commit. You would use hurtful words to describe my plan. Like i say, you never fail to bring a smile to me but at the same time, you never fail to make me upset. And that would be the times when i really abhor you! I thought Absence will make our feelings grow fonder but its again, unilaterally. Or should i make you fall so you will have a taste of how much it hurts to be in this state? But seriously now, i know i cant bear to do it. Every move that i made, i had a thought for you but again and again, you are doing things without sparing a thought for me. You never once cared how much it will hurt me to do this,this and this. I thought that staying at that place will make you think sensibly and appreciate the love from family. But do you?

Am i making a wrong choice again?

Im contemplating if should ijust stay on with you while mending a broken heart or just pack up everything and leave.

You tell me how should i?

Got to go, show had started (: