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Monday, June 15, 2009
再一次的伤害，我从天堂坠落到地狱。  After so many things, after so long, I'm still nothing but a best friend. You want me to understand your feeling and respect your decision but who gonna understand and respect mine? The time and effort I spent onto you brings back nothing but hurt. I believe feelings can be developed. But you don't. It's proven. I wish to leave this place but I paused a minute, pondering where can I go to. I'm so used to all this waiting, I'm so used to longing for the day to see you once again. I'm so used to everything about you. And now I have to wake up from all this dreams. My family and friends told me I shouldn't have even started with you, still I turned my back off them and persisted. I believe you will change, I believe you will be mature enough now to look at the big picture, I believe that our Fate have not end, I believe you will not let me down but you proved me wrong, again. What have I done so wrong to let you slip through my hand? What have I done to have deserved all this nonsense you said. I hate this tinge of pain inside me. I need to break free but had lost all the energy to do so. My tears are so warm, it's burning inside the frame of my eyes. My heart is so painful, it's hurting me. Yet, I could do nothing. It's so easy for you to pen your thoughts down, it's simply so easy but it's so not possible for me to bear this. It's more than what I can take. I wish we could run away together but now you 're gone, I have no one. You left me all here alone and I have nowhere to head to. You said there are guys out there better than you and I'm aware of this too but I'm unhappy. Indeed there are better guys out there for me but do you think I will just be happy? This might be just an excuse to me but like I said, I'm just so used to have you by me. Though there are no sweet-nothings, however I can sensed how much you care for me. And it's beyond just friends. Am I thinking too much? Am I really being overly sensitive? The house is so empty ever since you chose to leave, now I dread to go home. The place is so cold and solitary. I can hang on no more. I believe that you have other reasons but am I just helping you to find an excuse?Everything that I've done, every lil effort that I've put in is not being acknowledged. I'm feeling so helpless. I lost all my dreams, you ruined all my plans. You are back again hurting me, you ought to give a slap on your face and reflect well. I wake up each day thinking about you, wondering how are you doing, wondering how far you are. i begin to fade, i begin to disappear. Falling through, im losing it all for you. I try to stop, try to forget but you won't leave my mind. Everywhere i go, every where i walk, i see you always seeming so kind. I'm chasing a phantom, chasing a dream. Upon a dream, looking up at the sky once more and i see you for who you really are. Hoping that you notice me, looking up in to the sky and I realized how far you truly are. You are unreachable, you are the stars above the night sky. I just want to hold up and take you in my arms. That I can cradle and cuddle, hoping for you to be only mine but its just a passing fantasy. Our Happiness is almost touching my finger tips unable to be grasped. The word cannot be uttered out from my mouth.I held it before but it was like ice and melted to water. I was paralyzed, unable to stop it. Tears fell as I seen the last drop hit the ground. I dream to be back in that place again one day. Where I see your eyes are lit with pure joy and now it shines no more. Unreachable You, unreachable Love, that untouchable exquisite feeling. |
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