Sunday, November 1, 2009

Goodbye October, Hello November (:
And my birthday is in this month.
I'm anticipating to that day.
But I've no idea how to plan for this year's 18th birthday.
I used to have a plan, that is just to celebrate with the one I love so dearly.
That will be fine, I will just be contented to have him around on this special big day of mine.
But looking back now, I know that it is impossible already.
I still misses him so much, every day and night, every hour and minute.
I just wish to hold him in my arms through this lifetime.
But people keep telling me to dream on.
Yes, apparently I'm just dreaming on~

Perhaps after this post, I will be putting my blog to private.
So those who wants to be invited, Please kindly send me an email to shuyu-lovedher@hotmail.com

Today's a Sunday. I am staying at home. In the evening, I am going to help Weiyu with his POA. He is taking his O level tomorrow. And my UT starts tomorrow.
I haven't be going school for so long.
Guess that I am going to screw this UT 1 up.
What has gotten over me? Why am I behaving this way?
I guess I am gonna let my mum down. She pinned hopes on me to do well in school but I've been skipping school constantly.
I wish I can make a change but at the end of the day, I am still back to square one.
Help is what I need right now.
I am sitting in front of my laptop, helplessly.
I wish to get out of here, to somewhere where there is just peace.